2:30 A.M. on a Wednesday Morning....

Ok so I just had break down # 109324-28-1340-93123 of the last six weeks of pure disaster (I almost used a swear word but I decided to use better vocabulary) I am getting really personal in this blog but I think its an important topic because it is all about having second thoughts as to wether or not the career of teaching is for me. These thoughts have never occurred to me so I freaked myself out even more because of it. To say I am over whelmed this week would be an understatement but I am trying to be a college student and I'm not convinced its going so well but thats a topic for another time... 

My freak out of the day occurred while I was looking up information of my placement school Asa Messer at Bridgham Elementary School. I was trying to look up the date of when the school reopened as a new elementary school after the Providence School Committee decided to close 5 schools in Providence. After reading angry blog posts of unsupportive parents and learning about an unsupportive Teachers Union I totally lost it and started to wonder if Dr. Bogad was trying to scare me out of wanting to be a teacher. I don't like angry / unhappy people it makes me uncomfortable and I don't know what to do or say when I feel like a don't have the right answer and totally over react (^^^) and watching video's of a community who was clearly distraught over the situation made me extremely uncomfortable. I've never dealt with parents in an educational setting before and I'm very nervous about meeting parents because I've never had to before and I get very nervous before I do things I've never done before. 

I understand that the point of this assignment is to NOT give me anxiety about my future or career choice. Or to make me question or feel uncomfortable about attending my placement (which is not an issue I am actually looking forward to Friday) This assignment is meant to expose us (college students) to what is going on in the real world - Which to me right now is Providence Rhode Island, PAST (the history), PRESENT (now), and FUTURE (my own classroom or next semester even) 

I think that what Dr. Bogad is trying to do is expose us to knowledge so that we can decide what we want to do with it as students trying to become teachers. I'm sure I will read articles and watch video's in the future that will make me very uncomfortable but I'm not going to run away from what I want anymore. It's time to embrace everything... I may be overwhelmed on a wednesday morning at 2:30 A.M. but someday I'm not going to remember the day I wanted to change my major because of a YOU TUBE video.